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Wednesday, 26 August 2009

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Monday, 27 April 2009

  • Session Uno, you know?

    Retreat was sure enough one of the more enlightening experiences I've had in quite a while. I think it's just comforting to know that even with 54 people you barely know, it's possible to come together within a couple of days.. and somehow, though you don't know everyone that deeply, you no longer feel as alone as you once used to.

    That being said, I think it's just interesting to note that I can see how much I've grown in the last year, and how much growth there still is for me to have.. Sweet.
     
    Oh, I think I might relocate my blog soon. Weird, because I've been one to keep the Xanga phase for such a long time, but I suddenly feel like it's losing cool points. While I'd love to keep a blog I've had since like.. the seventh grade (hence super cool name..), I'm not sure Xanga has been rubbing me the right way recently. And not to mention that Facebook's automatic updates are a little sketch.. We'll see. I'm a sucker for relics, and Xanga definitely is one...
    ...I'll keep ya posted. (Ha. ha. ha.)

Friday, 24 April 2009

  • It has been eons since I've been here.

     I really need to work to make blogging a habitual process. Writing in my journal used to be so natural! I guess that's because it was triggered in the first grade, when my parents used to MAKE me write in my journal and check it every day, both for content and penmanship (I still have it at home). Unfortunately, the habit is slowly starting to fade. Sad. So sad.

    Spring quarter's been going pretty well.. I had a couple offsets in the beginning, but now at week four I'm pretty comfortable where I'm sitting. My classes are all engaging (Chinese is probably the most difficult class I've taken, ever), and I'm really excited for all the new things and people I will surround myself with for the rest of the quarter. Spring quarter is ultimately my favorite; the weather's beautiful, Unicamp is in session, and this quarter I've decided to pledge a sorority and see how I like it. So far the girls have all been really kind, and we're getting big sisses soon, which should lead to a sky rocket in warm fuzzies. To cut it short, I've definitely been keeping busy. Downside is that there are definitely some people I haven't made enough time to see or hear from. (Will work on it!)

    I'm a fan of lists, so I think I'm going to write the rest of my blog post in that fashion.

    Two random things.
    a) I got my laundry basket stolen. How. Jacked. Up.
    b) I need to stop making online purchases. I was pretty good for a while, until I just recently went on an online shopping binge. I refuse to disclose the amount I spent here, but trust me. It's QUITE a bit more than I should have.

    Two things I've recently realized about myself:
    a) I tend to imitate the people I'm drawn to, whether I know them or not. I think I also subconsciously look for more people to imitate.. but more on that later.
    b) I am becoming more and more forgiving. But I haven't decided if that's good or bad yet. I'm leaning towards good... but maybe more on that later too. (I'm a lazy blogger. Now that I've come and blogged, I won't even expand on ideas I bring up in my own blog post until some postponed date. ).

    Two things I'm super excited for:
    a) UNICAMP RETREAT! I'm leaving tonight at 7, i think! We're going to some unknown location, but regardless, I'm absolutely stoked. I've been really looking forward to Unicamp all year, and I'm sure this will definitely be one of the highlights of this year's experience.
    b) NorCal next week!

    Well that's all I really have the energy for.. hopefully my next blog post (for all three of you faithful readers) will be within the next week.

Tuesday, 07 April 2009

  • I. Can't. Effing. Sleep. At. Night.

    I run over all the situations in my head and they've been stressing me out to the point where I can't sleep.

    I wish it didn't have to be this way,
    or that I didn't have to feel so pressured
    But society seems to imply the message that I won't get anywhere
    without proper education.

    ..Also that I had one chance when I started here, and I've already blown it.
    And that's a consequence I'll have to pay for.. for the rest of my god damn life.

    Damn. I've never felt so dumb in all these years.

    TWO RANDOM THINGS
    - I notice when I'm stressed I tend to pull on and scratch my head. My entire scalp is now in pain due to inadvertent agitation while I am attempting to sleep but tossing and turning (and pulling/scratching) instead.
    - I've decided "yes" on SunGod. ..Maybe.

    It's not long until the sun rises. I've been sleepless for the last 4 hours.